Date: Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Posted at: 9:24 PM

I've been having trouble sleeping! I can't sleep early anymore. Im just not sleepy! When im asleep, i'll just wake up, den space out. And then at work, i'll just feeel so super tired. D: Gosh, what is happening to me?!

Results are out tomorrow! I dont think i can sleep at all tonight. :'( I really really hope my results turn out okay. Im not expecting good results at all. SHIT. Im so scared!

Poly poly poly. Please please lemme get into poly. I NEED to get into poly. I WANT to get into poly. I want to leave JB. No, its not that i detest JB or anything. JB's home, where i've come from and all. I want to experience other places. Places that there's no one im close to, where i can start afresh. Yes, im talking about starting afresh, i know i was whining about that before. Im afraid of course, i hate changes especially when things get so different but its what i have to go through to grow up. No doubt that i'll miss home. I just want to leave JB. I cant stand being the one left behind. I dont want to be the one alone, who's waiting for everyone to come back home. Im sick and tired of it. I just cant accept having to stay in JB now. I need my life back. These few months is just not who i am, not who i want to be. I wanna runaway from this place right now because there are things that are becoming more & more painful. I need a break from where i am now.

I dont care what any of you'd think after reading this post. Call me a coward or a chicken, im just too sick and tired of everything. Im bored of the feeling of being ignored & abandoned. Im DONE with it.