hello there.

Date: Sunday, October 26, 2008
Posted at: 5:18 PM

i feel so tired recently.
not just because of exams, its also concerns him.
i may seem like normal but everything is all in my head.
every single feeling, every single thought.
i dont show it because i dont want to.
no, im feeling like normal, like how i feel always.
just that im thinking alot, ALOT.
i have alot of things on my mind.

i bought a book called the pretty one.
its a super sweet book.
i love it to bits.
~~because it doesnt have any sexual content~~ -.-
the guy character is super sweet ; yes, SUPER.

a little sweet scene from the book :

I instinctively reach for his finger and put pressure on the wound, just like i've done for every single one of the freshman class. Even still, I'm borderline hysterical. "Myabe we should get you to a hospital!"

Drew laughs and leans his forehead against mine. This excites me in a way i never thought possible. "Its no big deal, Megan. You're pressing on my hand so hard you've definitely cut of my blood supply."

I giggle, but the tone of it is anxious and worried.

Then Drew does something incredible. He kisses me softly on the forehead and says, "You're so sweet."

When i was reading this,

my head was all him.

I know i can only imagine because it can never happen between the both of us.

Then, i felt tears forming in my eyes.