Date: Friday, August 22, 2008
Posted at: 12:09 PM




I dont know what's got to me these few days.
I've been realizing on almost losing everything.
I really have no idea how to explain how it feels,
guess someone has to really endure it, to really feel it.

I lost one bestfriend.
Im gonna lose another one soon.
It really hurts to type those words out.

Joey has been like the closest person to me especially in form 4.
& she's going to further her studies in australia.
Before that, i lost one bestfriend too.
So its like, double blow.

Im feeling really insecure.
I have no idea how many friends im gonna lose in the future.
Of course, i dont wanna lose any friends anymore. :(

Loneliness terrifies me.
Without friends, i dont think i can survive at all.
Its like falling to total darkness but no ones there to light it up.

I know, i know im half-crapping right now.
But i just dont know howto put those feelings in words...