Date: Friday, January 25, 2008
Posted at: 9:18 PM

People has been asking why i look so sad nowadays.
Do i?
Maybe because i dont smile that often anymore.
Im finding it hard to smile & even harder to laugh.

I dont know why i feel so lonely.
I feel so abandoned.
Even with my mates, i feel so out of place.

I feel like im not needed anymore.
People can live on without me.
I wonder so often that it doesnt make any difference whether i existed.

I feel so emo that i cant stand myself anymore.
I wanna go back to my own happy-go-lucky me.
But, pretending to be happy sometimes is hurting me too.
Faking smiles & laughters hurts.

a changed me*